Check In

When I was pregnant at the end of a vary long day with children at the day care I would always do a self check in and ask my self how are you doing? The answer would vary and I am not even sure why I would do this but it became a ritual and I guess it helped. I find myself feeling the need for a check in How am I doing..................
I am feeling sad and scared that my husband is going to be gone away from us for 7 weeks, I am dreading do everything all by myself with no help from anyone. I am going to miss having someone to talk to and someone to listen.
I feel mixed that this is Doug's last week here and I know that I posted that were are leaving on facebook and not one single person from here has even suggested seeing us before we go. I know I shouldn't feel sad it not like I am really close with anyone here. When we left Toronto we had so many people behind us that loved us and cared and still do care, its just kind of strange to think we could just go and leave and it was like we were never here.
I am feeling anxious for this process to be over and for our lives to start again. At the same time I feel like I should enjoy this process and take it all in. After all this is it for Whistler I should try and fill my head with the beauty and positives of here.
I feel nervous that things there may not work out the way we need and very much want it to. I also want to be positive and fantasize about a wonderful new chapter in our lives filled with beautiful moments.
I feel tired and distracted from my day to day. I just keep thinking and before one thought finishes another starts. ex specially about the never ending TO DO LIST...................................................
To sum it up I feel like some one would when change is about to happen and they are not sure what is in store for them next.
Beautiful Moments by Hunter............
A new thing for Hunter is playing shy with people and today when one of my clients said Hi to him he slinked back looking all shy and came over to me and hid his face on my leg. I know I should ignore it and not give it attention but I secretly Love it and want to squeeze him tight.
Hunter new favorite move is twrilling in circles he loves to spin but doesn't realise if you do it too much is really throws off you balance and when you do it with friends its like toddler domino's and they all fall down.
Beautiful Moments by Hayden.................
Today when i asked Hunter for a kiss he ran away and gave my the cold shoulder, Hayden said AHHHH that's not nice and leaned in to me and kissed me on the cheek. My sweet loving boy with a HUGE Heart.