Stop to smell the grass.

Getting there, I am so close to being packed up I have every closet filled with boxes and one junk drawer to sort. I have been scrubbing the kitchen and windows and I have been taking care of the kids, meals and the Dog. I apparently forgot to take care of myself, no wine all week, little sleep and lots of on the go. The upside I lost 10 lbs since Doug's been gone (probably not the best way to lose but I ll take what I can get.) The down side is that I am sick had a ear infection now I think I have a throat infection.
My darling children probably had a better 4 weeks in their lives with more attention and fun activity's but I am trying my best.
Hayden has been in camp all week and I have only had one child Wednesday- Today I have gotten so much done, and he is having so much fun!
He got excited about dressing up like a cowboy for their theme day today Picture bellow, Hes a blue Cowboy Hayden the Kid we call him LOL.




WANTED HAYDEN THE KID
REWARD CANT PUT A PRICE ON HIM HE IS PRICELESS



Hunter is my walking talking little ball of energy and just keeps going even in the middle of the night. Last night woke up at 1:30 I gave him Tylenol and brought him to bed and one hour later changed my mind and put him back to his bed he is a wild sleeper who talks kicks and moves everywhere.





Mr Hambone himself (he is such a Ham and loves to smile.












I cant wait to have a little more time to play and enjoy my boys and life a little. I feel like a grump always impatient and frustrated or Tired. Hayden is pushing my buttons and I feel guilty for pushing back. I just feel like all of our interactions are arguments and me finally snapping and saying Close your mouth right now!!Its so frustrating that every time I ask him to do anything he ignores me or argues with me. I wish he would just for once do what I ask and say nothing at all. Usually after I get upset with him he does something really cute and reminds me that hes just a boy who has a big imagination and a mind of his own. Like tonight he stops and runs to the top of a grassy knoll and says "stop please mom I just have to roll down this" and he did saying WEEEEE all the way down.
EDITED to add Only 11 more days to go Dougs comming 2 days early !!!!!EEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKK

Confessions and Venting

Please forgive me for I have sinned, i haven't written a blog post, or taken one photo in over a week.....
Why well I am sure you could guess but in case you truly stumped by the recent phenomena. I am slowly going crazy and slowly am I going crazy.....I am beginning to resent allot of things, Moving, working, being nice, cleaning, living without my husband, not being a great mom.
WARNING IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO READ ABOUT MY MOAN AND GROANS OF THIS WEEK< PLAY ME THE TINIEST VIOLIN ON IN THE WORLD AND SCROLL DOWN.
Okay I warned you so here it is.
I hate the fact that every time I think I am getting somewhere with packing I look around and all I can see is STUFF more stuff, where the F*&^ did I get all this stuff from, why do I own all this CRAP!!!Do I really need three wine openers, Why do my children have so many toys yet the would rather follow me around winning or saying their board instead of playing with them(future note pleas do not buy them toys for gifts unless you trade for what they already have).
Why is it that every time I start the big cleaning project and after hours of scrubbing down I look up feeling accomplished and satisfied in a job well done to turn around and see the destruction I left behind Crushed I Begin the daunting task of cleaning up after myself.
Why is it that we keep garbage I don't mean the kind under your sink I mean the kind stashed away in a junk drawer or cupboard or closet.
Why is it that when you are on your last straw of patients the people seize the moment to pull that straw out form under you and throw you to the ground?????
(I was in the parking lot of wall mart unloading my groceries and kids in to the car, I look up to see oh Shit I parked 15 feet from the cart return, Okay well I need to do the right thing and return the cart, The kids are buckled in the car is not hot its not hot outside all the windows are down, the car is off and I can see and hear them if anything happens, I run and return the cart, still see them there good, I throw the garbage in the can, still see them there good, I run back and... this lady beside me says the phones for you, HUGH that's not my phone!?! Its the police WTF!! she called the police on me for abandoning my kids!!! Seriously!!!The Police say that I could have been arrested even for returning a cart for 1 min.I almost died, The thought of me getting arrested in front of my kids, my kids being taken away by the police, The kids having to be in police custody until they can reach Doug (nobody in Whistler for them) what am I White Trash!!! Lesson learned NEVER not for a second will I leave them in the car by them selves.)
Why is it when you are the most tired you have been your children argue and fight you on EVERYTHING!!!
Why is it when you just want everyone to leave you alone, you children do something that makes you just want to hold them closer and never let them go?
Beautiful Moments
I took Hayden and Hunter swimming I have them all toweled off and ready to go, we stop in front of the mirror so I can try and tie my mess of hair up. I look over to see Hunter looking at himself in the mirror He has a huge smile on his face says Hi Attu (he calls himself ATTU) HI and waves and blows himself a kiss. Way to cute for words.
During our swim at the pool the boys were getting at each other the were hitting and being ruff and annoyed, So we head to the hot tub to cool off (LOL). While in the Hot tub Hayden leans into Hunter I think oh great here we go, as i about to block hi and lecture He puckers up and kisses him then again and again.