Its the end of the world!

The rapture is here its the end of the world, What do immediately think? What to wear? who to grab and kiss? what you need to do before you go? did you turn off the gas? What booze or food you need to try before you go?
Well first off I would want to make sure I spent my last bit of time doing something with my boys that we all love like swimming or skiing, then we would have a picnic with our favorites foods Sushi, pizza, pasta, and lobster and for desert we would have a chocolate cake with ice cram Camel and fudge, Doug and I would indulge it the best champagne beer and wine hell maybe the boys too after all you only rapture once. Then we would have a huge tickle wrestling match followed by a sunset hike and a warm family snuggle. Doug and I would have to have pre rapture private time and champagne and a smoke now I am ready!
Seriously though I would have to day that even thought the rapture hype is probably going to end up being forgotten like the Y2k, with that said its important to remember that with every day you should try your hardest to end it in peace and no regrets as it may be your last.
I always hugs my children tight at the end of the day and tell them how much I love them and go to bed peacefully instead of angry or with regret. You have to finish business and make peace before you hit the pillow. Snuggle or more with your significant other looking back at those sweet simple moments in life that mean so much too you like when your children do and say something to make you laugh or when the snuggle up close to you and you Can just feel the love then with that satisfying feeling I fall asleep
Oh and always wear clean under ware.
Happy last night on earth and sweet dreams.

why working out never works out

Dear back fat love handles and fat jiggles......You are requested to vacate my body ASAP>>>I wish it was that easy..... But because I have a love for the sweet indulgence of life chocolate, Beer, Wine and Junk T.V. and I really hate working out these days I find things are just getting more of a jiggle. I of course have all the excuses #1 I am tired #2 I am relaxing #3 My Head Hurts #4 Theres something good on T.V. #5 I had a beer already #6 I ll do it tomorrow #7 My Kids need me #8 I ate too much #9 the stroller is to heavy to pull #10 the Dog runs too fast #11 Its too hard #12 I don't want too #13 Id rather be on the computer #14 I need to call someone #15 I don't have anyone to go with......and so on and so on.
I have a gym membership, I use to run and I use to be pretty fit, its not like I don't have some reasons not too. I guess thinking running around after 3 snot ridden toddlers during the day and being dragged by the dog at night is a work out, isn't cutting it. So I finally went and I start the trip off with thinking in the car on the way of what I am going to do while there, first I am going to do cardio for 45 min, then weights for my arms and then abs and Ill finish with stretching. I arrive and already the feeling hits me (I don't want to go) I start to walk up the stairs to the gym and in my head I think here we go. I walk into the gym and I see buff guys and girls working on their well defined bodies and I immediately look down Yuck rolls here there and hey look I think I see my toes. I don't look up I dont want to see anyone or attract attention. I look left great a whole wall of mirrors and look there is me with my uncontrollable hair squished into a bun, wearing a tight white tank for all the gym to see my pot belly and muffin top and not doing my Lou Lou's and Justice. Look down again I enter the Cardio room face the white sign up board time of reason Okay now 30 min of Cardio, weight, abs, and stretching. I scan the room for the perfect machine and more importantly the perfect spot, definitely not the treadmill in between Mr and Mrs Marathoner, Okay how about the spin bikes humm maybe not beside the Lance Armstrong stand in, Okay the olyptical we there is a nice quiet spot near the fat guy in the corner with my back facing everyone (great now everyone can look at my ass jiggle as I work out) Well at least I get to over look the Mountains as I work it . I get on start my long awaited journey and now I am thinking this isn't so bad, then the incline starts okay its getting harder I am 2 minutes into the second incline and I am planning to only do 15 min of cardio and stretch and screw everything else. Okay Tanya hang in there, I can do this, here we go, lets do it....... 15 min, half way, I think I can actually do this but maybe only 30 min Cardio and some weights.... 20 min in I am dyeing, I need too stop, I cant breath, am I having a heart attack ,no more that's it it over.... 23 min in okay I am okay, this isn't that bad, again maybe just 30 min Cardio and some abs......28 min OMG when will this end!!!!.....30 min Yeah I finished I cant believe it okay I can do everything now weights, Abs ,and stretching. I walk in to the weight room look around sigh look down defiantly just abs. I get to the stretching area, get a mat start my sit ups, 1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10-Oh God-11-12-13-14-15 Oh no-16-17 I am not sure I can do this-18-19-20 Okay that's it i am calling it a day. Its time for a beer and to relax. I leave and get a beer and have a couple, counterproductive probably but I did it! I went to the gym. Okay I thikng I can do 30 min Cardio and 30 min weight training and 10 min abs tomorrow.......or maybee just 3 beers.

Crossroads

When you think of a crossroads in your life that you were faced with do you think of it as one thing you wanted and one you were not to sure of? Well I am at a serious crossroads in my life and right now and I am not sure how I feel about either path.
First lets go back to give you the whole picture.......
We moved away to B.C. (Whistler) with big dreams of adventure and a simpler life we have lived and worked in Whistler for almost 5 years not loving every single moment but enjoying our time spent here. Whistler has it ups and downs for us the up are way way up the Mountain that is skiing and snowboarding and showing our son the powder hungry pursuit to life, or camping and Hiking up another Mountain. The outdoor life in general is what I love about here, hopping on your bike with the kids going to the beach, hiking with my family and spending good quality time together.Whistler also has it downs I never made strong connection with a group of friends when I do connect with people they move away. Its hard to be alone with out friends. Doug and I are closer then ever but I need girls. Another down side is living here financially, which we didn't notice until after we had Hunter. With expenses like ski school, skiing passes, camps, and the higher cost of living and lower wages with little room for growth.
Doug quit his job after the Olympics in hopes of finding another dream job with a stable future. While he was enjoying his unemployment with our new baby we never thought that that job would be so difficult to find. Doug sent out lots of Resumes applied for everything as time wore on and it got closer to the end of his unemployment we were realising that our adventurous dream may have to come to end. We may have to move to find a more stable job with a future. But where the age old question where?? Vancouver? Toronto? YIKES. We looked at booth options relentlessly. night and days of pros and cons.
Toronto has family Friends, we know the city and jobs that provide a future. Toronto has a lot of people traffic violence and crime. Vancouver has the Mountains, the hiking and outdoors life the Jobs with a future, violence and crime and some friends.
This was proving to be a very hard decision with a lot of ups and downs to either place. Then it got more complicated, Last week Doug gets some news that throws another path in our crossroads, His old place of work is hiring for a Catering Manager position which was coming with benefits and a great income. What to do do we stay or do we go?? We finally decided that we will flip a coin so to speak, Doug applied for the job if he gets it we stay for a while longer(not forever but just until we find the stability we need. If he doesn't get it we leave and after five wonderful years making Whistler our home we will return to home in Toronto.
Crazy as I am writing this I am getting goose bumps. We will find out by the end of the week I don't know if I can take the waiting. As I am writing this it feels very surreal but I guess about to become reality.
How do I feel well funny enough clam and ready for the next path.