Crossroads

When you think of a crossroads in your life that you were faced with do you think of it as one thing you wanted and one you were not to sure of? Well I am at a serious crossroads in my life and right now and I am not sure how I feel about either path.
First lets go back to give you the whole picture.......
We moved away to B.C. (Whistler) with big dreams of adventure and a simpler life we have lived and worked in Whistler for almost 5 years not loving every single moment but enjoying our time spent here. Whistler has it ups and downs for us the up are way way up the Mountain that is skiing and snowboarding and showing our son the powder hungry pursuit to life, or camping and Hiking up another Mountain. The outdoor life in general is what I love about here, hopping on your bike with the kids going to the beach, hiking with my family and spending good quality time together.Whistler also has it downs I never made strong connection with a group of friends when I do connect with people they move away. Its hard to be alone with out friends. Doug and I are closer then ever but I need girls. Another down side is living here financially, which we didn't notice until after we had Hunter. With expenses like ski school, skiing passes, camps, and the higher cost of living and lower wages with little room for growth.
Doug quit his job after the Olympics in hopes of finding another dream job with a stable future. While he was enjoying his unemployment with our new baby we never thought that that job would be so difficult to find. Doug sent out lots of Resumes applied for everything as time wore on and it got closer to the end of his unemployment we were realising that our adventurous dream may have to come to end. We may have to move to find a more stable job with a future. But where the age old question where?? Vancouver? Toronto? YIKES. We looked at booth options relentlessly. night and days of pros and cons.
Toronto has family Friends, we know the city and jobs that provide a future. Toronto has a lot of people traffic violence and crime. Vancouver has the Mountains, the hiking and outdoors life the Jobs with a future, violence and crime and some friends.
This was proving to be a very hard decision with a lot of ups and downs to either place. Then it got more complicated, Last week Doug gets some news that throws another path in our crossroads, His old place of work is hiring for a Catering Manager position which was coming with benefits and a great income. What to do do we stay or do we go?? We finally decided that we will flip a coin so to speak, Doug applied for the job if he gets it we stay for a while longer(not forever but just until we find the stability we need. If he doesn't get it we leave and after five wonderful years making Whistler our home we will return to home in Toronto.
Crazy as I am writing this I am getting goose bumps. We will find out by the end of the week I don't know if I can take the waiting. As I am writing this it feels very surreal but I guess about to become reality.
How do I feel well funny enough clam and ready for the next path.