I Cried!!!

Today was the day I cried< I don't do it often but when I do it means something and usually is allot of things build up. It happened in the Kitchen just after I sent the kids to bed and Hayden was watching a movie I opened the fridge and knelt down and cried. I cried hard sobbing with big wet tears rolling down my face dripping on to the floor, sobbing I cant do this what am I doing.....
I cried because Doug's in Invermere without us and I miss him so much, I cried because I am all alone and I just barley keeping it together, I cried because of our financial sate and I am so tired about worrying about money, I cried because I feel like I am not being a Great Mom and I am giving my children only 1/2 of what I want to, I cried because I am not being a great Teacher to my home day care kids (will just not as happy as I use to be, I cried because I don't have all the answers and I wish that I did, I cried because I know change is good but its so hard until things do change, I cried because I want people around me that support me instead I have to type out how I feel.After I cried I picked my self up closed the fridge shook it off and, I felt a little better and then I decided that I had the controls of my life and I will make things happen not matter how hard they are and EVERY THING WILL BE OKAY.
Beautiful Moments by Hunter.......
Today i caught Hunter running around with the phone in hand he was holding it up to his ear and saying "HI HI" I asked him who he was talking to he said "DADA"