Confessions and Venting

Please forgive me for I have sinned, i haven't written a blog post, or taken one photo in over a week.....
Why well I am sure you could guess but in case you truly stumped by the recent phenomena. I am slowly going crazy and slowly am I going crazy.....I am beginning to resent allot of things, Moving, working, being nice, cleaning, living without my husband, not being a great mom.
WARNING IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO READ ABOUT MY MOAN AND GROANS OF THIS WEEK< PLAY ME THE TINIEST VIOLIN ON IN THE WORLD AND SCROLL DOWN.
Okay I warned you so here it is.
I hate the fact that every time I think I am getting somewhere with packing I look around and all I can see is STUFF more stuff, where the F*&^ did I get all this stuff from, why do I own all this CRAP!!!Do I really need three wine openers, Why do my children have so many toys yet the would rather follow me around winning or saying their board instead of playing with them(future note pleas do not buy them toys for gifts unless you trade for what they already have).
Why is it that every time I start the big cleaning project and after hours of scrubbing down I look up feeling accomplished and satisfied in a job well done to turn around and see the destruction I left behind Crushed I Begin the daunting task of cleaning up after myself.
Why is it that we keep garbage I don't mean the kind under your sink I mean the kind stashed away in a junk drawer or cupboard or closet.
Why is it that when you are on your last straw of patients the people seize the moment to pull that straw out form under you and throw you to the ground?????
(I was in the parking lot of wall mart unloading my groceries and kids in to the car, I look up to see oh Shit I parked 15 feet from the cart return, Okay well I need to do the right thing and return the cart, The kids are buckled in the car is not hot its not hot outside all the windows are down, the car is off and I can see and hear them if anything happens, I run and return the cart, still see them there good, I throw the garbage in the can, still see them there good, I run back and... this lady beside me says the phones for you, HUGH that's not my phone!?! Its the police WTF!! she called the police on me for abandoning my kids!!! Seriously!!!The Police say that I could have been arrested even for returning a cart for 1 min.I almost died, The thought of me getting arrested in front of my kids, my kids being taken away by the police, The kids having to be in police custody until they can reach Doug (nobody in Whistler for them) what am I White Trash!!! Lesson learned NEVER not for a second will I leave them in the car by them selves.)
Why is it when you are the most tired you have been your children argue and fight you on EVERYTHING!!!
Why is it when you just want everyone to leave you alone, you children do something that makes you just want to hold them closer and never let them go?
Beautiful Moments
I took Hayden and Hunter swimming I have them all toweled off and ready to go, we stop in front of the mirror so I can try and tie my mess of hair up. I look over to see Hunter looking at himself in the mirror He has a huge smile on his face says Hi Attu (he calls himself ATTU) HI and waves and blows himself a kiss. Way to cute for words.
During our swim at the pool the boys were getting at each other the were hitting and being ruff and annoyed, So we head to the hot tub to cool off (LOL). While in the Hot tub Hayden leans into Hunter I think oh great here we go, as i about to block hi and lecture He puckers up and kisses him then again and again.